they'll throw you into the deep abyss, hurl abuses at you, make you feel like shit, think that you're not worth being their flesh and blood and after all this, they love you.

d is born.

d is cute, chubby and has big eyes.

D grows up to be a naughty boy but parents love him to the core.

D eats from his mothers hand, learns football from the father's feet.

D falls down from the tricycle, they bring him to the hospital.

D sticks out his tongue, they stick out their tongue.

D goes to school crying, but comes back happily with an ice-cream in his hand.

D gets scolded for being lazy.

D is not sad.

D forgets to do his homework one day.

D's teacher calls his father.

D's father says that this is last warning

D accidentally pushes a boy down the stairs.

D gets punished.

D's father beats him up.

D cries.

D's mother cries.

D goes to bed with swollen eyes.

D feels agitated.

D starts to throw things around.

D punches and kicks his father as he tries to calm him down.

......

Arrest me, i am a liability. i will cause harm without me knowing. arrest me, it's been done before at least 20 times. arrest me.

I just want to live te raast if my life doing theate but I know that it is a dream that I won't be able to fulfill

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The feeling has come back again. I hate book ins

This might take a while to figure out now so I won't rush it

army's over!

now over to police. yipeee.... i think.

It's never too late to become what you might have been

there's a name in my head,
that can't seem to go away,
there's a face in my head,
that bounds to make me sway.

best great spy experiment gig i ever went to.

i am going to miss comfortable beds soon.

i want to get 2 years over and done with.

tell me your hopes and fears. only deeper conversations from now on.

i don't know whether i'm with this world or not.
all i know is my mind that i've got
my mind wants to to say something,
all it says nothing.
come on now and don't keep quiet on this monstrosity
come out now and keep up out this stupidity.

Death frees every soul.

i like the queens. freddie mecury was in queens. he was born in india. he's a good singer. his chemistry with the band is good. but Aids fucked freddie mecury. another one bites the dust. aids could have stopped cold? never mind that. When the americans hear about AIDS, they associate it with gay people because they deserve to get it. any white boy who has unprotected sex with HIV carrier will get aids, kindergarten stuff. That's how people thought 20 years ago and some still think that way. People were born with different thinking. AIDS is biology and thus anybody will be affectged regardless of sexual orientation. did i just repeat this fact? i did. Nevertheless, this is a prime example of how religion is such a danger. One must know about the history of the earth. If not for the fucking asteriods that wiped out the dinosaurs, we won't be here. Even then, there is strong evidence that climate change nearly wiped us out too. Did you know that now we can decipher 3 human species. This means that we are part of nature. (e.g. different species of cats, lions and cougars, etc).I believe (but not strongly anymore) that tere might be a god (super intelligence that made the whole fucking UNIVERSE) but then he doesn't give a shit whether you are good or bad because if he does, then he must have a fucking super ego.

Who the fuck he/she think they are? Waah! I can't live life on my own terms but must live under some fucking rules? What the fuck? IF YOU GET HOOKED ON ASTRONOMY, YOU WILL SEE THAT THERE ARE BILLIONS OF GALAXIES, IN OTHER WORDS THERE IS LIFE OUT THERE. ONE DAY WHEN FIND LIFE, THEN OUR RELIGIOUS INSTITUTIONS WILL SIMPLY COLLAPSE LEADING TO HOPEFULLY CHAOS AND MASS SUICIDES ( a good way of getting rid of El Stupidos)

What if I didn't have to continue studying anything related to science.
I don't think everybody really studied to become what they are now.

What if I could just live my life day by day?
Not to worry about money, not to worry whether I will get retrenched. I don't have to get a full-time job. I can always be a freelancer. There's more fulfilment when getting paid at the end of the project, rather getting paid every month on the same date.

What if I could just really do what I like?
I know that for these past few years, I have been changing my interest. But now that I have found something I know that I won't regret doing for the rest of my life, the only stopping me is that it has not whatsoever relation to my qualifications. Will I be considered as somebody who strayed away or somebody who can't decide what he wants?

What if I was rich?
This is definitely is in everybody's 'What if' list. People like to spend as soon as they become rich, I have never seen somebody who just live life normally. You don't see rich people living life normally, because it feels good when your status is above than everyone else when you have something they don't have.

Just think about it.

What if you.....