i am not blessed with a father and being the only child, i have no one to talk to.
don't pity me because you shouldn't, i am much stronger without a father or even without a mom. yes, i don't believe that love is the most important thing that you need in this world because it was neither given nor showed to me what it is like.

i rarely cry when somebody die. i am not a male-chauvinistic bastard. i simply think it as a process to move on, more oxygen on earth, less carbon dioxide, and more space to live in this cramp country.

the most important thing in your life is not you what you have now, it's your future. that is what is important to me. i always think about the future. ironically, i tell myself sometimes not to think about it and take life day-by-day but cirumstances have prevented me to do so. i am not some rich guy who can ask money from their mom everyday. i don't live in a house that secludes me from a neighbourhood park. i don't wear branded stuff everyday just to show i can afford it.

the wish i always have is that i was born 50 years ago, where things were so much tougher. where you don't have to worry about technology. where everything is not about money. but then again, in this country?

ask yourself this question for those are really reading this post or my blog. what do you see in the future for you?

do you even see one?

if you do, think about it to yourself the steps you need to get there,
make sure you don't live in a world of fantasy, telling yourself you want to marry prince charming when you're just nobody compared to him.
stop telling yourself love prevails over everything like how it happens in the movies.
there's a reason why it only happens in the movies, because it never happens in real life and if it does, there is more complication than what is show on tv/movie.